FUBAR's Blog

Labrat sent me another link to an article about army personnel being more susceptible to migraines than other demographics. Although the article suggested several causes, I noticed a lack of being subjected to guinea pig research listed. My headaches started shortly after we came here. Sometimes my head hurts so much I think my skull's going to crack. I know that they're trying to treat us but I'm starting to think I can't stay here much lo… Continue

The intervening days have been a confusing welter of couch sessions and television and art work and hypnotherapy and nightmares. For a while, I wondered if I had hallucinated everything I thought I saw but nothing stops the nightmares. Nothing. Labrat sent me an email with an interesting link about a molecule that suppresses anxiety. Was this done to us? How was this discovered? Is the lack of emotion, and certainly, fear, in these monster… Continue

"Natural selection codes for survival, not comfort. This gene, although uncomfortable, could be beneficial to survival." Why didn't someone point this out to the people who felt the need to experiment on us? Even the temporary effect of not feeling fear was enough to turn us into slaughterhouse meat. Now, no one will talk about it. Everyone denies the injections we were given that weren't all standard. Psychiatrists give me sympathetic… Continue

I remember watching the film when I was a kid and wanting to be Van Damme so badly. I watched his other films as well but nothing stuck as well as Universal Soldier for some reason. How was I to know that later on in my life, I'd be witness to a programme not dissimilar to the one from the film? Reanimated corpses of dead soldiers out of control and on the rampage. Am I meant to say that? I guess not. I guess I'm meant to sit at the window and play scrabble or weave baskets or some other mind-nu… Continue

How the hell do you not talk about those things? There have been promises of counsellors but we'll see. We've been shoved to one side already. Quarantined in a hospital wing. They say it's for our own good. To monitor the wounded. To make sure the rest of us are ok. In truth, we all know they're trying to forget we exist. We're inconvenient now. We saw too much and they don't want us to talk. None of us are stupid enough to go to the rags but we need somewhere where people understand what we've… Continue